Can't Sleep Because...

It's 5:31 AM right now and I can NOT sleep.

This Summer, I have come to realize that I want to pursue my music. It started some years ago when I was 12 years old. I was up late watching "Poetic Justice" on the television, and from then I started my poetry, which developed into me rapping. I can't really explain the feeling. Music excites me. No matter how much I'm suppose to be doing something else like actual work that has a deadline, I can't help but write and listen to music. Even watching interviews of young artists on their grind inspires me. I do that all day long on Youtube, and it just inspires me. Because, I want to do the same thing.

Even though I will be returning back to school for my Junior year as a PRE-MED student, I still feel that this music has priority. Well at least in my heart. Does my mother know? NO. Some years back I did go about saying I wanted to be a rapper but, that dream died or hibernated. And now, it's back. No matter how hard I try to suppress the feeling. No matter how much I hear about my chances. No matter what, the feeling is STILL and has ALWAYS been there.

So, I just keep posting videos on Youtube as much as I can. Hoping to record something one day. Hopefully, by the end of this year, I can go in and treat myself to an actual recorded song. I have the material, I just need to go ahead and record it. My whole deal is that I want to be another FEMALE face in the game. Another LYRICAL force. Because, for the ones with two x-chromosomes, who do we have repping us now? Nicki Minaj is our face right now. We need a stronger presence.

I gotta make it. I gotta make an effort. Because if I don't even make an effort to at least try to be heard---that will be the biggest regret of my life EVER. I'm sure.

So, after this post. Expect my Youtube videos to be on here. I was hiding it at first. But, eff it, this is MY blog. No more holding back.

Oh, and if you are out there working towards a dream. NEVER let anyone hold you down. But, most importantly NEVER let yourself hold you down.

#offmychest

Three Types of Women: The Strong, Insane, && Submissive

Ok, during the Summer I have acquired a case of Insomnia, which sometimes won't allow me to sleep until after 5 am some days. Because of this, my mind becomes infested w/ ideas. This is one that came to my mind last week.

I realized there are 3 types of women in the world. Now, these are just general categories, as many people will vary due to their own personality, but generally speaking there is only three IMO. [Fellas pay attention, you just might learn something NEW!]

There is the Strong, the Insane [God forbid!], && the Submissive. Let's get into some movie examples, just to give you a clue.

For the [STRONG] category let's take Angela Basset's character from Waiting To Exhale, Bernadine. Now we all witnessed how she got revenge at her husband for cheating on her & leaving her for a white woman. She took all of his clothes, shoes, personal valuables, & his car && set it all on FIRE! The fire dept. came & she told them it was trash as she was smoking her cigarette. I'm sorry, but, she did tha da-- thang in that movie.

Breakdown: This type of woman is a 'NO tolerance' woman. She's not a "man-eater" but, she doesn't play any games. Once she finds out one [& I mean one] time that you're doing her wrong, it's over. There are no more chances buddy. && she will get revenge! She also doesn't NEED a man to support her or her children b/c she's already successful herself. But, this doesn't mean she wouldn't like one. He just has to have his stuff together that's all. He has to know how to talk to lady. A lady she most definitely is, until you get on her bad side, then that's another story.

We're going to skip over the [INSANE] category for just a minute.

For the [SUBMISSIVE] category let's take Vanessa Bell's character in Coming To America. You might not even really remember her role b/c it was so small but, to me I could never forget it. She was the princess Hakeem was arranged to marry. You know, the one who barked when Hakeem told her to bark like a dog. The one who jumped up & down like a fool, yes her. She had no opinion of her own & every time Hakeem asked her what she liked, her response was "Whatever you like."



Breakdown: Clearly, this is a poor excuse for a woman. She lets her significant other dominate over her. She relies on him to pay for everything && let's him be the boss. This relationship is not a partnership b/c she never voices her opinion, even when it's asked for. She's living in the caveman days & her man is the breadwinner. I actually see a lot of girls like this. They let their man do everything, && only hinder themselves. There's nothing wrong with allowing a man to be a man. It's ok for him to hold the doors, and to even order food for you, if that's your thing. But, never let a man take your dignity like this. Not acceptable.

Next, let's discuss the [INSANE] category: I saved it for last because homegurl can get a little VERY crazy!! Let's take the movie A Thin Line Between Love & Hate. You know, like I know that Brandi (Lynn Whitfield) was one crazy Bish! First off, she admitted to killing her husband b/c he cheated on her. She became very attached & always speculated that Martin was up to no good, which sometimes he wasn't but, STILL! Because, he didn't show up for her birthday she left her own b-day cake with a knife in it & dropped it off where he was. She faked being sick in a hospital to get him to come see her. && she almost killed him, like her ex-boyfriend, in the end.

Breakdown: This kind of woman is out of any man's league. Hell, she's outta my league b/c she's just too much! She gets really, really attached & wants the man to give her all the attention. She has to know where her man is ALL the time & ultimately tries to make her man what she wants him to be, her play thing. When she says "come home", she means it. & if you don't follow her wishes, you'll truly regret it. Now, she may sound like a [STRONG] woman but, trust me, they are totally different. You have to actually do something to a [STRONG] woman for her to fight back. An [INSANE] woman needs no reason. Insanity is in her blood!

So, there you have it, the 3 types of women. Remember there are varieties. You could possibly meet a woman w/ all three characteristics [God bless your soul].

Fellas, take your pick :)

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The Reality of 'Shaving Your Head'

Posted on La La Vasquez's Twitter page: "covered my shave side because I had a mtging/audition and the shave side wasn't appropriate for the character..so I had to switch it up!"




[Reality sets in 4 a minute]: This is EXACTLY why people should not FOLLOW these "trends". Shaving a side of your hair might seem cool [in the beginning] until you realize that you have a job and this is [NOT] accepted! Especially, if you're not a celebrity, it's even MORE important for you to NOT shave your head. Because you saw someone famous [i.e. Cassie] does not validate you for doing so.

If you have [or considered] shaving your head, you should consider the following:
You do realize that you will not be able to do a quick pony tail [which is great on rainy days IMO]? You do realize that the other side of your head might take a while to grow back [& might not even grow back to it's original length]? You do realize that right?!

So, thank you Amber Rose. Thank you Cassie. && Thanks Kelis! But NOOOO thanks! I know the difference between what is right and what looks right [at first].

Alright, I'm done now :)